Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 8:50 PM
busy busy busy. tutorials. practices. catching up. own feelings. disappointment. problems. expectations.
i've realised that all these are weighing me down. with that stupidity in me, everything just become worse. why cant i just let go? stupid stupid stupid me. everything i do just seems so useless. yet i cant stop it. stupid right? i've no time for myself. to sort out my own life. yet im still wasting time on such matters. stupid right? perhaps its over-optimism. perhaps its stubbornness. perhaps its just pure foolishness. all im doing just make me sadder. but i've to carry on this... pretence...
econs remedial today. one word. bored. to the max. for once (out of many many times) that i really have no affinity with econs. it sounds so foreign to me. nuts to me. i just wonder how some people just excel in such a subject. but i still love chem. :)
came across this some time ago. but it kinda motivates me and pulls me through all these awful period. it goes like this. if you feel that that burden on you is getting heavier, it means that you're climbing. pretty true to me. well. at least it shows that im climbing. not falling down hard down. but i want this burden to get lighter leh. sad life.
i really wish for you to know it has never changed. never... but does it matter anymore? it's tiring continuing this pretence...
taking a break. from everything. shall convince myself not to think so much. cheer up :) im just irritated with econs. shagged. tired by myself. tired thoroughly. through and through.
thanks clar for the score and being my pianist. tiff for playing violin. looking forward to our piece. :) yipee!!! dont emo already.
Resonance IX
Sat 19 May 7:30 pm
VJ PT
$8
come leh... haha. :P
- still holding on to it... are you? -
